just a few thoughts for today

Lately I have been perplexed about my heavenly Father's love. Why would He care about me, a little speck in the entire universe? Why would He want to love me and hear my thoughts, joys, cries, frustrations, passions,...why? It's unexplainable actually. We will never comprehend His love for us because we really don't deserve it. It's simply because He wants to and delights in loving us. That is such a heavy thought, but I can't think too hard about it. He just asks me to believe Him at His word. It's like this little girl with her dad in the picture. She has no concerns in the world because she is standing with her dad. She is completely free to be herself becasue she is 100% certain that her dad loves her and will take care of all her needs, wants, and desires. I am learning to be child-like and become simple again. It's easy for the things of this world to come cloud our view of Abba. He doesn't make things complicated, we do. Matthew 11:30 says, For My yoke is wholesome (useful, good--not harsh, hard, sharp, or pressing, but comfortable, gracious, and pleasant), and My burden is light and easy to be borne (Amplified). The words described here hit me in a new way today because I realize that sometimes I allow the concerns of the world, or what others think of me, or the tension of living in this earthly life, weigh me down. This verse puts all of those tensions into perspective. I need this perspective continuosly. May we truly become like children who know that their Daddy is going to take care of everything and He delights in them. He's crazy about us! Just believe it...don't analyze it or diminish it by reeling through all that you aren't or want to be. He sings over us just as we are...because He wants to, not because we deserve it. I am rejoicing today for that simple revelation from my Daddy.

Peacock chasing me...

Dreams...I had a dream the other night that peacock was chasing me. I wasn't afraid and actually I was enjoying the playfulness of the peacock. A few days later a friend tells me that she has been crazy about peacock's the last few months and proceeds to tell me the meaning of a peacock. (You may not believe that dreams symbolize certain things, but if you take note of your dreams and do some research on the meaning of dreams you will soon realize that they do carry great meaning.) So, my friend tells me that peacocks are a symbol of resurrection and new beginnings. Immediately, I had to laugh because last year "new beginnings" was a common phrase in my life. I guess He isn't done yet with that theme in my life. Interestingly enough, the peacock (resurrection, new beginnings) was chasing me in my dream! That was an additional symbolism that made me smile. Furthermore, a friend's mom had a dream about me two nights ago and she emailed me the dream and meaning of the dream. She dreamt that I was standing, smiling as I held onto the rains of a half of a horse...sounds bloody, but half a horse actually means something:) Half a horse means new works! To add to the animal theme, a few weeks ago I was at a church service in California and three ladies prayed and prophesied over me. None of these ladies knew anything about me. The first lady prayed over me and said she saw a horse racing toward the future. The second lady was an ex-member of the Columbia drug cartel and I went up to her and asked to hear her testimony. She gave me a very brief version of it and then I asked her to pray for me. She prayed many things and then said that I have the gift of joy. The third lady prayed a few things and then pointed out that I have the gift of joy (none of the ladies were with each other when they prayed for me). She expounded on the joy gift for a bit and it was very direct to my heart and what I needed to hear!

All this to point out that God is so interested in encouraging us, especially when we are hungry for Him. He is speaking some themes in my life and I would be silly not to pay attention to them. So, today I acted in faith toward what He is speaking to me. I was being trained on a job that I just accepted on Monday. Today was my first shift and within thirty minutes of being there, I knew that I couldn't accept the job because it was not my "new beginning". It would be a fine job, but I can't just accept fine jobs anymore. I must do what He wants me to do and not just accept something because it is secure. He is teaching me to risk and not settle for the common.

So, I await the "new beginning" and "resurrection" to come chasing me. It is a life of faith, right?

I drove to Alki Beach this afternoon, to process my decision and get outside in His creation. Here are a few pictures of the end of this monumental day of living FAITH!